Well...where to begin?
I'm 37, married, with a 7 year old son.
I've been following peak-oil and related news stories for about 5 or 6 years now, but I really only "got it" a few days ago. I now see things the way they truly are...it's like I've been asleep my entire life, and I have now, finally, woken up only to realize that I've been dreaming. I'm very much appreciative that I have become "aware", I just feel so bad for how long it took me to come around. My wife and son will be depending on me for their very survival and I've wasted so much precious time. But, I suppose it's as they say, 'better late than never'.
We live in the city of Edmonton, which is located in the province of Alberta, Canada. The climate here, if you're unaware, is one of extreme cold for many months of the year. It is not uncommon for the temperature to hit -40 (C and F.....the same at this temp apparently, who knew? I love google
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)and simply remain at that temp for weeks on end. This scenario could happen over about 3-4 months of the year.
I am a certified tradesman, currently employed as an electrician, and also have certification as a roofer. In both trades I have extensive experience in all areas: residential, commercial, and industrial. My wife is a teacher at our community playschool, who previously worked mainly in retail.
I've been reading the forum here occasionally for a few years. I mainly stay informed of current events by looking through the breaking news section of latoc. I have been a regular, almost daily, visitor to Matt's website. In fact, I tried to post this msg at latoc's forum earlier because I feel that I owe it to Mr. Savinar, out of some kind of 'debt of gratitude' feeling I have towards him since I first began to understand the nature of the situation by reading his description of peak-oil which begins "Dear Reader, Civilization as we know it is coming to an end soon." I registered at his site, but unfortunately I cannot post until the account is verified and approved, so I'll write what I have to say here. I have to write it somewhere, I need to get it out to people who know what I'm talking about.
Two nights ago my wife and I ended up in a deep discussion about our (near-term) future and what it is likely to hold for us. I was astonished to realize several things...she 'gets' it too(!), and she has begun to take small steps to improve our chances of surviving short term disruptions of service of electricity, water, etc. She hasn't really done much, just stocked up on the amount of food we keep in the house, bought a few extra blankets, stocked up on candles (which I thought ,ignorantly, were only for decoration), and agreed when I suggested we buy two crank-rechargeable flashlight/radio jobbies. Now that I really get it I can see that she has done so much more than I have to prepare. I used to keep 6 five gallon jugs of water downstairs and cycle through them, but I let that slide about a year ago. I'll be filling them up first thing in the morning now that I think of it. It'll be a good time to explain to my son that we need to prepare for certain unforeseeable circumstances now so that we will be ready if (when) the events occur.
I have really not done anything so far to get ready, how could I have been so blind? I have read countless news articles that should have had my 'spidey senses' tingling (on fire), but I just now got it. I think maybe part of the reason I was so slow to catch on is that the problem is so overwhelming that my brain just couldn't fully accept the situation as a reality.
While my wife and I were talking, I realized that she is very aware of the implications of resource depletion. How could we have never had a real, meaningful discussion of this earlier? She said that she really didn't like to think of the consequences, so didn't talk about it. And I guess it was similar for me. Oh well, we can't change the past.
Last fall our neighbor had some extra topsoil they needed to get rid of so my wife agreed to take it. I wheelbarrowed (I don't think that is really a verb) the topsoil into our yard, and covered it with a tarp to keep weed seeds out. The idea was that I would build a raised garden for her this year. I haven't. She asked me yesterday if we could just plant veggie seeds into the pile of topsoil as it is now.
I feel so unprepared, so many possible scenarios play through my mind. What do I do if somebody breaks into my house in the middle of the night, looking for food? What do I do if I hear somebody outside raiding a garden we'd tended to for several months and are relying on to survive through the winter? What will we do if we lose power in the middle of winter when the temperature drops to -30C for several weeks? What about when I can't find work and run out of money? How do I explain to my 7 year old son that the world he has known all his life is disappearing? What happens when the power has been out for a couple weeks, and others in the neighborhood realize that we still have food, water, etc? Do I buy a gun? Do I teach my son to shoot it if I do buy one? So many things to consider.
I asked my wife if she would like to move to a warmer place, where the winters are rainy instead of extremely cold. She's not loving the idea...her parents are close to us here and she's reluctant to leave them behind. Besides, the area I'm thinking of would not allow me to earn what I can here, and we have debts to pay off.
One odd thing that happened the other day was that I stopped worrying. I realized the wisdom in the saying that you shouldn't worry about anything; if you can change it, change it; if you can't, you can't. As a result, the last couple days have been some of the best days I can remember...in my life. I have always had worries of some sort or another, but now they're gone. I also get the feeling that I'm not alone in this regard. The people I work with, my wife, friends...even people on tv seem to be catching some kind of worry-free, relaxed, awareness. It's almost as if we actually have the ability to change the world so that the doomsday scenario doesn't have to happen. Or it could just be that my new way of looking at the world results in me seeing the same old things in a new way...but I don't think that's it. It almost feels as if humans are going through some kind of "shift of consciousness" or something. Anybody else sensing this?
Anyway, it's just after 3:30 a.m.here and I can't think anymore. I'll check in tomorrow and fill in some more details.