Newfie wrote:Starting at $60,000 for battery model and $80,000 for fuel cell.
I bought a used Pathfinder with 62,000 miles for $6k.
Newfie wrote:Toe,
How’s your employment situation? With so many out of work I was wondering.
Newfie wrote:Toe,
There is MUCH to be happy about in your post.
You are not living the life you had intended, or been promised. But you are living. And you were called back. That means they see more than average value in you. That should be reassuring if not financially rewarding.
And you were able to help you Mom out once again. I forget the reasons for her troubles, if you ever shared.
But you are building a history of flexibility and robustness for yourself. You are proving you are a survivor. Good on you.
Newfie wrote:Find cheer where ever it arises. seed
The_Toecutter wrote:Good post, bochen777.
I don't know precisely how well I have the physical aesthetics down regarding my personal appearance, given that aesthetics is such a subjective thing, and given that my appearance is rather unusual for someone my age, but I am not far from 40 years old. My physique is not something I would call bad, as I'm certain a lot of men even younger than me would kill for such a physique, but it is certainly an awkward physique, to say the least. I have the 6 pack abs. I'm scrawny at 140 lbs, of average height, and of low body fat. I have blonde hair and blue eyes. Not only that, but I look extremely young for my age. I have no grey hairs or wrinkles, and my skin is smooth, supple, and radiant. I'm commonly mistaken for a teenager, including by people of that demographic. I went to a 15 year high school reunion and there were kids there attending who mistook me for a kid from another school, not realizing I was twice their age. I get more attention from women and girls who are far too young for me than I do from women within my age range, and dating has been awkward as a result(I also get more attention from gay pedocreeps I want nothing to do with than either... but that's another story altogether). I've gone to great lengths to take care of myself and it shows.
That said, I have yet to find that perfect creature who loves me for me within a set of circumstances where we can stay together. For most of the women I have gotten to know, it has generally come down to what kind of lifestyle I can afford to provide for them. Right now, that is a zero quantity, as I can barely afford to support myself. The last time I had a fulfilling relationship was 10 years ago, and it was broken off on good terms because she had to move back home multiple states away to care for an ailing father, while I couldn't just up and quit a good paying job for that, especially with student loans to pay at the time. She was a keeper, and not interested in me for my money, and could accept the fact that I didn't want or need the house in the suburbs or the new car or all of the middle class niceties people think of as necessities. Most of the women I've been with(and they've been few) were only after money, and one who wasn't after my money was weirded out at my appearance and horrified at the fact that she was attracted to me once she discovered that I too closely resembled her 15 year old son when I took my shirt and pants off, which made her feel sort of sick to herself and the relationship had to be called off because that just wasn't going to work for her.
So there's that. I could easily land a pretty and very young thing if I tried, at least for one night, but to keep her? That would be a very tall order, and I'm highly disinclined to take advantage of them, given my sense of ethics. Were I a sociopath, I could easily keep and fill a large book of conquest, but I'm just not that sort of person.
A random drunken panhandler approached me last year and said that if he had my looks, he'd be getting pussy all the time. I've also been approached by creepy gay dudes who thought I was an adolescent(I have MANY horror stories on that subject).
But appearances are something that can change abruptly and irreversibly, and with it, any advantages they confer. I'm at the age where that could happen at any time. I'm fortunate to have a greatly extended youth, but the sorts of foods I ate in the interest of longevity which had the consequence of maintaining said youth were neither cheap nor convenient. For most people in the U.S., GMO junk foods are the staple, mainly corn, wheat, soy, factory farmed meats, and dairy, all laden with fillers, artificial flavors, growth hormones, antibiotics, and various other poisons, and it shows with runaway obesity, cancer epidemics, and a myriad of health complications resultant thereof. For me, dietary staples are fresh fruits, fresh vegetables, seeds, nuts, wild caught fish(at the rare times when I can afford it), and legumes, and I make it a point each day to eat a serving of leafy greens and of blueberries, both of which have all sorts of longevity benefits, coupled with about 1 gallon of water a day. I often go through 3,000-4,000 calories a day, burn it off with exercise(I use bicycles for 99% of my transport and work out), while getting 150-200g fiber on any given day. There is a downside though: Lots of pissing, flatulence, and shitting, often at inconvenient times and places. Small price to pay given the advantages reaped.
At the rate I'm aging, assuming nothing happens, I could easily see myself living to be over 100. I'm not certain I will be able to maintain that into the future though, and actually finding a women who loves me for me, well, that's going to be quite a tall order, especially considering I'm not much of an outgoing type to start with nor does my financial wherewithal currently appeal to most women who are seeking those within the upper 20% of the wealth curve. At my current chronological age, I'm probably not going to look the way I do for much longer, even though I'll continue taking good care of myself for as long as I am able.
As far as my taste in women go, I don't even need a 10/10. A 4/10 who is visibly healthy, not so obese that she can't wipe her own ass, responsible with money, and at least of slightly above average intelligence would suffice nicely, but in the U.S., even that modest filter eliminates more than 99% from the selection pool. 2/3 of them are obese or morbidly obese fatties, and most just want to cram expensive fast food down their gullets and conform to the gods of consumerism, and for you to provide it to them. Appearance wise, I greatly like oriental women. I also like blonde white women. I've seen many 9/10s and 10/10s, and sadly, they are usually taken. But very pretty they are, and I'd love to have one.
I'll take being single over being a financially scared debt slave cowed by a fat henpecker who threatens to take half my stuff and extract child support and alimony when she doesn't get her way, any time, even if it means I go without. I value freedom from that sort of slavery to just that extent. After all, the point of finding a suitable mate is to provide happiness, not to prevent it from being possible at all.
That said, I think I'll find the right one some day. I just don't know when or where or how. I get a LOT of looks and even cat calls from younger women and girls far too young for me. They have no clue of what I am because they are judging me by my appearance, and if I were an amoral sociopath, I could EASILY take advantage of so many of them. The women in my age range think there's something wrong with approaching me, because I look an entire generation younger than they are, and they do not take me seriously when I approach them. I can't even go to bars without being harassed about my appearance because "kids aren't allowed at the bar", albeit bars are a less than optimal place to find decent candidates, nor do I have the money to justify frequenting them.
So, things are quite complicated for me regarding this subject... I'm not sure it will get any less complicated when I start to look older, either.
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