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Mike Ruippert’s Story Part 6: Jackboots

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   I didn’t let Mike smoke in the apartment when I was home so he would go downstairs in front of the building and talk to the doorman or tenants walking their dogs.  But when it was too cold for that (he was a California kid after all,) he simply slipped into the stairwell.
   One night, after returning from his last cigarette before retiring, he said, “When I was out in the hall, all I could think about was men in jackboots kicking the door down and taking away everything.  I think it has to do with Denver.”
   Of all the moves Mike had had to go through as he was growing up, none had hit him so hard as Denver.  For the first time in his life, he’d established roots.  He was on the football team and he had friends.
   “When we left Denver,” he elaborated, “my dad didn’t explain, didn’t ask how I felt.  He just said, ‘Get your stuff ready; we’re leaving for Los Angeles in two weeks.”
   “The way you left Ashland,” I observed.
   From conception to realization, that plan to close up shop after the computers were smashed and flee the country for the terra incognita of Venezuela where again, he knew nobody, had taken all of eighteen days.  And like the move from Denver, it involved divesting himself of everything he held most dear; leaving family heirlooms, which I will not describe, for his closest friends, with the stipulation that in the unlikely event he should return, (see his article, By The Light of a Burning Bridge) they would be restored to him.  (For the most part, they were.)  One of the signs of suicidal intent is giving away one’s possessions.
   “That’s true,” Mike said in wonder.  He was not accustomed to the insights of psychotherapy.  “But why would I want to repeat Denver?”
“That’s one of the weird things about the psyche.  We repeat old behavior because it’s comfortable and fulfills predictions; we’re not taken by surprise.  It may suck but it’s a case of, ‘The devil you know is better than the one you don’t.  Also, we may want to get it right this time.'”
I’m sure this constant upheaval as he was growing up was one reason that even as an adult, Mike never stayed in one place very long:  After leaving his home of Los Angeles, he moved to Ashland followed by Venezuela, Brooklyn, Los Angeles again, Sebastopol, Colorado, (where he must have been thrilled to return,) Calistoga.
   Like anyone else who’d been close to Mike, I assumed the men in jackboots taking away everything to be government thugs.  It’s only in rereading this account that I see that they also represent his father.  But in the end, they became Mike himself.
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2 Comments on "Mike Ruippert’s Story Part 6: Jackboots"

  1. Plantagenet on Sat, 26th Apr 2014 9:58 am 

    Hopefully Rupert is at peace now. His fantasies about his dad will trouble him no more.

  2. PrestonSturges on Sat, 26th Apr 2014 2:41 pm 

    Many of the loudest and seemingly confident people are simply trying to control their own anxiety.

    But seriously, who’s going to kick in your door? The big bad federal government of the local cops? We can see the local cops shoot, choke, taser, and beat people to death every week. Elderly people, mentally ill, retarded, homeowners in their own driveways are killed brutally by LOCAL cops.

    Meanwhile the people at the Bundy ranch say that these local cops should be much more powerful.

    All this paranoia about the feds is a distraction while local militias and their cop sympathizers try to become literally a deadly neighborhood Gestapo.

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